so i end up NOT doing my essay which was due TODAY...i give up...i'm so not in any mood to accomplish ANYTHING...not good...sigh...me back into the state of "dun care"...yea..back into this exact same state as when i first came back from HK...didn't care about a thing..coz..i simply had lost trust in everything...now i'm back into this state...sigh...watz wif me?...watz wif me?...got tons of work coming up...and i do mean TONS...4 papers...3 presentations...2 examz...i'm dead...
so...another weekend is coming..wonder wat this one will bring?..surprises?...more confusions?...more fun?...sigh..just dunno...i really dunno if i even wanna see him...i wanna see him coz i know i'll be happie when i see him...but then...if...he...well...acts "normal" then...i'll be upset...sigh..told ya i'm confuse...
well..one thing good...i think this guy helped me get over "him"....wooHhooo...=P...so...hm...yea...*sigh*...

i'm sOooOooO tired...wat a weekend i had...it was fun...starting drinking since thursday nite...wahhahaha...=P...went to this fashion show + dance then drinking abit again on friday nite...then it was all about ppl's b-day and MORE drinking on saturday nite...sunday..no drinking...but went to eat icecream...hahaha...=P...oh yea..got locked outta my house on friday nite too..shxt eh!...nothing happeneded..yet sumthing happened...u know the feeling?!...it seem like sumthing happened...between u and sumone...yet..ur so unsure of wat happened that it may just seem as if nothing happened...gosh...am i making ANY sense here?...

heard of the saying "if u like sumone, tell him/her...for u dunno wat would happen next and u mite regret"...well...itz true..but when it comes to urself..u just can't do it...especially when therez sum "other" ppl. involve at the same time too...this is soOOooOO shxtty...and i'm messed up BIG TIME here...hez nice to me...yet...sumthing is stopping me from wat i should/want to do...crap!...

well...i bumped into a couple of my public skool classmates over the weekend too..it was incredible...and met a few more new frenz along the way too...and the world is so freaken small eh?!...turns out this and that and him and her and everyone else r sumhow connected...just incredible...just amazing...hehehe...

well..it was a fun weekend...and..well..a fun yet confusinig weekend for me..=P...
alrite..back to reality..which means...back to skoolwork...
i got an essay due in 12 freaken hrz. and i have NO clue wat i'm suppose to even write about...crap!...
and..OH YES!..got 3 of my 4 midterm results back...crap crap crap..flunked one of them...shxt...oh well...considering that i seriously DID NOT study for a thing...i did alrite...hahahha..=P..but no more next time..next time..i think it would be a good idea to read ALL my readings and do ALL my work before writing an exam...yea..that would help...ALOT...

...tired...confuse...unhappie...

..nite..

been a long while sincei last wrote..sorrie..been tied up wif work and MIDTERMS...4 killer midtermz in 3 dayz..geez...dun think anyone can handle it..hahaha..so yup...i couldn't handle them and basically...i screwed them all...well..wrote 3 so far..and i KNOW i screwed them up BAD...crap!...ok...from now on...NO MORE "last-minute" readings or "dun-bother-to-read" readings...i MUST be on track...geez...i'm still behind....gosh..really gotta catch up and get myself together...i MUST graduate this year...
so yea...been getting drunk alot lately these days...alwaz out drinking...not good either eh?!..watz wrong with me..becoming an Alkie..(like sumone)...yea..i think itz him..who got me into this...i'm just like him now..drinking and drinking...thanx!...not only had you screwed me up...but u've also got me into drinking...thanx for teaching me soOOooO much in HK...i think i learned the BIGGEST lesson of my life in HK...DUN TRUST sumone who you think you should trust...coz very often...itz coz u trust them so much that they take advantage of u back...they LIE...and they will lie BIG TIME....
ok..time to head back to studying...*sigh*....just wanna get over it...coz i wanna SLEEP...i'm so tired...

alrite...STILL sick...*sigh*..when the heck am i gonna get better?...gonna head back in Tor. soon and i'm still feeling sick..so how the heck am i gonna go partying and get drunk and get in shxt when i'm SICK?!..crap crap..stupid throat kills..and...due to my "WERID BODY"..i can't take ANYTHING..not even a tablet of Tynenol..yea yea..i'm allergic to Tynenol plus all these other medications which other NORMAL ppl. won't have trouble taking...yea yea...i'm WERID...everyone tells me that...even the doc. says..."Ms. Lo...u have quite an unusual body...behaving in an unsual way"...oh geez..that just makes me feel soOOoOO much better...
still...that lump on my rite side of my throat...bugging me on and off...and when it bugs me...i'm telling ya...it REALLY bugs me...just watch..one day...when i no longer capable of endure the pain that this stupid lump is giving me...i'll just get sumone to slit open my throat and take it out...yea...i'm serious...=P..trust me...u dunno how painful it is...stupid lump...giving u a hard time...and member!...i can't take shxt like Tynenol...Aspirin...Advil..those pain-killer stuff...so...yea...CRAP!...
hahahha...i sound so angry eh?!...yea...well..me moody..angry..grumpy...just about everything get on my nerves...
well...suppose to see my little sistas tomolo...itz one of my closest sis. b-day..well...celebrating her b-day..not exactly her b-day tomolo..since her beloved bf had already claimed her on her official b-day...(geez..Brian!)...hahaha...can't wait to see this sis..and hopefully...will be seeing other ppl. whom i haven't seen for a LONG time...
okiedokie...gotta get packing...heading home soon..woOhhooOooO....

alrite..i'm starting this AGAIN...totally forgot i had one running before..but then..arghh..forgot my dumb password...have to get a new one going on...was talking to one of my closest sis-Angel a couple of nites ago...just on icq...wow..haven't talk to her for soOOooO long..miss this sis so much...she was such a close fren of mine...and such a sweet sis...we hardly have time for each other anymore..which sux...she over at UW and me here at UWO...sux sux...yeah...shez the one who reminded me about this blogger crap and had me going back on here and scribble my thoughts....
alrite...me coming down wif the flu here...and had a quite interesting weekend starting off wif myself getting completely drunk at Monopoly..and making a fool of myself in front of my frenz and in front of sum ppl. whom i dunno...just wat a first impression to give ppl. ..crap...nearly roll down the stairs...wouldn't get into my frenz' car and was going crazy...y was i drunk?...y did i drink so much?...so much is bothering me...just had to get myself drunk and try to release the frustration and anger...
alrite...i know it had been a long while since i wrote...but..really...i'm tired...and sick...so me gonna nap...will write soon again...to keep u guys (and myself) up-to-date....nitey...