oh yea...n today marks the 1/2 yr. when we started really "talking"...wow..wat a short frenship..within 1/2 a yr..from strangers to close frenz to even "closer" frenz...having a couple of misunderstandings here n there...i've never had a "FREN" whom i've been thru so much wif...within such a short time...it was an amazing six months of time...
up and down...down and up...up and down...down down down down...and not moving back up again...

Happie B-day Derek..watever..ur down in Mich wif her..i bet..no one told me..just have instincts that ur down there..having fun?..i bet..

anywaz..things r still going so shxtty n crappy here..well..atleast for me..so fuxken unhappie n angry..yea..those two..having fun..being happie..while me..just..diu..
such a loser..a bastard..yes..thaz wat i'm classifying him as now..wat he did was just so ever POINTLESS...absolutely POINTLESS..not one sorry from him was accepted by me..just ain't forgiving him for wat he has done..fuxk...

anywaz..examz u here shortly..should be focusing on them...gonna try REAL hard to do that...

well...another few days have gone by n me ain't feeling any better about wat has happened...itz just so freaken hard to get over sum stuff n move on..or atleast...put ASIDE it for now n try to focus on other things...damnit..so freaken hard...
have a feeling that things r alrite wif "them" by now..i dunno..if thaz the case..then..dunno..really dunno how to think/feel...happie for them?..NO!..mad at them?..NO!..just dunno..still mixed up in emotions n feelings n thoughts..
i really dun wanna choose wat i think i would choose...but if therez no choice for me..then...wat can i do..rite?..
just so...hez rite..he really has disappointed me...really...really did...
got nothing else to say..me just dunno anymore..