Wednesday, November 28, 2001

yea..after two days n nites of work and study...me finally done..for now atleast...gosh..i'm so stressed..dun think i did too well on the two examz..but o well...i promised myself that i'll catch up next term..thaz FOR SURE...coz me won't be partying and won't be drinking..yes yes..i've almost made that promise and i tend to keep it..unless...hehehe...=P..."sum guy" got that special power to make me take back wat i've said..but as for now..me will be keeping that BIG promise...yup yup yup....
so yes...still feeling sick...lump on my throat hurts...sigh...sux...
alrite..i'm sleepy...exhausted...tired...burnt out basically...so i'll get sum serious rest now...
wknd is almost here again..wonder wat this wknd will bring?...*sigh*...not gonna expect too much anywaz..less u expect..less u get disappointed...rite?...so yea..not gonna expect a thing...
alritey..me get sum rest and catch sum tv...= )...

Tuesday, November 27, 2001

yea yea...decision made...no more working = no more drinking = studying = graduating on time = less guys' problems = money saved up = no more hang over = no more $$ wasted = no more "unwanted" frenz...
gosh..been so pissed off lately about a couple of frenz...yea..they say they r ur frenz..but look wat happened?..ditched u just like that...i was there when they were frustrated and upset..and now...completely ignoring me and dun give a damn..is that wat u called FRENZ?...gosh...well..thankfully..itz not me who got the problem here...other ppl. have been saying just about the same about her...gosh...
i KNOW who my TRUE frenz r...they've stuck by me thruout everything...unlike sum ppl.....thanx..u know who u guys r...

Sunday, November 25, 2001

crap!..another screwy wknd for me...this sux...this REALLY sux...got sooOoooOo fuxken drunk and sick on sat. nite..sigh..couldn't even make it to work on sun. ...shxt...o well...
so yea...i hold myself not to go out for a couple of dayz...well..just coz i DUN wanna see him..when i know itz "thanxgiving" in the US...but Sat..sigh..there he is again...was happie to see him..but then..well...yea...*Sigh*...
same place....BBB...same room...Rm 5...fuxk...
ok..time to work...got tonz to do...meanwhile..letz try to concentrate and FOCUS...

Wednesday, November 21, 2001

oh yea...forgot to mention...started talking to a couple of my "ex"es this wknd too..and actually bumped into one too...arrghh..wat a wknd...yea..so itz Wednesday already...wknd will be here soon...but..i know this won't be a fun wknd for me..got too much to do to be having fun again..plus..therez...well..nevermind...itz THANXGIVING in the US...oh yea..just great...
my dumb comp. just did sum werid thing on me and erased 1/2 of my paper...now i gotta rewrite it again..and NO..it did not recover...well..only 1/2 of it..crap..*sigh*...alrite..time to get working...

Monday, November 19, 2001

another crazy weekend..or should i say...a crazy WEEK rather...partying..playing..drinking since last Wed...went to Loo for a dance..it was FUN..i loved it..didn't expect to have that much fun..but i did..didn't expect to enjoy it..but i did...didn't expect to see soOoOOo many ppl...but i did..so many ppl. whom i haven't seen for soOooOo long were there...it was wicked...= )...even those long-lost family frenz were there...didn't drink much that nite..but was so "winged" for sum odd reason...then followed by a day of SLEEP..pure sleeping at a frenz place...then..hmm...thurs. and fri. were drinking nites...hahahha...and...Saturday..oh geez...another nite of "winged"...bumped into another grp. of frenz...had so much fun wif them too...funnie seeing them and watching most of them being drunk too...never saw this "side" of them before...esp. wif a couple of the guyz...hahaha...
and..YEAH..i'm getting better wif my "15...20"...hahaha..i was actually winning and beating this guy and making him drunk that nite too...wOOohOoo...=P
and wat about "him"?...arrghh..i dunno..the dance...the car ride back...everything...arrghh...dunno...just REALLY confuse...and i have a feeling this confusion will be on for a period of time...crap!...= (
oh...went to see Harry Potter too...thought i wouldn't really enjoy it..but HEY!..i DID...i thought i was good...kekeke...=P...
alrite..shxtload of work for me to do..i'm in big trouble here...a paper and a presentation on Wed. and i haven't started on a thing yet...sigh..alrite..time to work...
i miss the weekend already...= ( ...

Monday, November 12, 2001

alrite..another wknd of drinking...4 nites out again...three of which i went drinking...2 of which i got drunk...VERY DRUNK on friday nite...slept on this guy's shoulder...(a comfy shoulder)...hahha...=P...aiyah..watz wif me?!...i only would member things which involves him...
so close...yet so far...so far...yet so close...
yup..dun understand?!...takes one to understand one...*sigh*...
just simply CONFUSE...
dim suen ah?!...yeeya...i felt wat he did...he was rite there...rite by me...
*sigh*...but then...wat can i do?...i dun have the confidence...
should i keep myself in this?..or step away?...

Monday, November 05, 2001

FOUR straight nites of drinking...3 of which i got "winged"...ahhaha..and...hmm...i'm still confuse...i dun even know how i feel now...i mean...do i like him?..or do i just enjoy having a "new" guy around?...gosh..thing is...i'm...*sigh*...nevermind...i'm lost inwords here...dunno wat i'm trying to say...actually...dunno wat i'm thinking...